Confessed killer says he was in uncontrollable rage when he murdered Chelsea King and Amber Dubois
In a telephone interview from jail with San Diego television station KFMB-Channel 8, Gardner said he did not stalk Chelsea King, 17, or Amber Dubois, 14, but was overtaken suddenly by "a major rage."
"I was aware of what I was doing, and I could not stop myself," he said. "I was in a major rage and pissed off at my whole life and everyone who had hurt me and blew up and hurt the wrong people."
Gardner said he is consumed with self-loathing.
"I hate myself, I really do," he said. "There is no taking back what I did, and if I could, yes I would, are you kidding me? But I was out of control. If I was able to stop myself in the middle of it, I would have, and I could not. I was out of control."
Gardner, 31, is set to be sentenced May 14 in San Diego Superior Court for the murders, committed during rape attempts. In a plea bargain, he will be sentenced to life in prison without the possibility of parole.
Gardner said that the idea of a plea bargain to avoid the death penalty was designed by the defense attorneys and the district attorney's office. "I didn't care," he said. "I still don't."
He suggested that he will be killed in prison where inmates who have victimized children are often targetted by other inmates. "II'll be dead in five years," he said.
Gardner served five years in prison for attacking a 13-year-old. He also confessed to the attempted rape in December of a woman in a San Diego park. He said he would provide details of the King and Dubois killings to the families if they want.
Asked by the television reporter if "there are other victims," Gardner declined to answer. "Nice try," he said, with a laugh.
-- Tony Perry in San Diego
Photo: John Albert Gardner III. Credit: Associated Press